2012 so far...

This year I decided that I would finally no matter what make it a better year. So far it is for the most part, got my art started and the more I make the better I feel. Going to be starting to sell my stuff soon too, which makes me very better about myself than I have in a long time.

On top of my art I am going to start working towards exercising everyday, starting twice a week. I'm also eating healthier, I should have started doing this a long time ago, but I admit that I have gotten lazy. No more though I have to stick to it continue to work towards my goal. And now unlike so many times before I have the support I need.

My last major goal for this year is to quit smoking, yes I know, it's a horrible habit. Which is why I want to and know I should quit. I'm smoking less and forcing myself to go longer and longer without having one. That way by the end of the winter/early spring I'll be smoke free.

I've been spending a lot of time lately thinking about the past year, and all that will be going on this year. It has me kind of scared to tell you the truth but at the same time so excited. By the end of the year, I would have been selling my art, new job, a new place, bills paid off and get to see my man more. We will get to have more of a non-complicated relationship, which I'm so very excited for. I can't wait to be spending nights with him, watching movies together, attempting my hand at making him diner and going out to do things.

This year is starting off a bit slow getting all this started, but I have no doubt in my mind it will happen. He gives me hope for everything. Soo excited!!

Working, working, working.....

So been a little busy lately taking lots of extra hours at work to help finally pay off all my bills and get my own car. But been wearing myself a little thin. And also lately I just want to keep up this for the most part happy mood so work is helping me kind of just worry about work and nothing else. Don't have much to report I am sorry to say. But have some cute pictures of kitten to put up soon and some of my already done art, and hopefully get a few of my current projects.


My mood this week has for the most part been good. Only had one break down day, so i guess that's a good sign that I am slowly getting past all this fucking drama. Still waiting to get my stuff back. UGH!! Been almost a month and my Ex still has some of my shit. But from the sounds of it his luck isn't going so well, so to that in this happy and strange mood I seem to be in tonight.  " AHAHAHAHAHAHA.. fuck you". I think part of this better mood has been created by Jess, C and their wee one. And also a bit by me realizing (and I have thought about this from every angle but still my opinion) that over the last almost 3 years with TS that I tried so hard gave everything to that relationship. I have my faults but openly admitted what they were and tried to work on them. So I did nothing wrong. Still Have those days where I see a happy couple or hear about another baby being hatched that I somewhat break down. Considering only about a month ago TS and I were talking about one day getting married and starting a family together. I still wish as well that I could find out why he did this. I am about 80% sure of why but I guess as my mom keeps telling me for closure purposes I need to here it from him. Well not going to happen. Oh another wonderful mess that is.


On a lighter note my Dad and I are on this Sunday evening going to get the Schnoodle (half Schnauzer, half Poodle) that my Dad is saving from a shelter. He needs a dog, he always has. I would rather though have a lab or German Shepard. Small dogs can be quite annoying, and a schnoodle?? Really Dad? Meh, going meet the little guy on Sunday so we will see how this goes. Hopefully This dog whose name is Toby will Get along with my Cosmo Kitty.


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Sorry she must have heard me dirty look from the kitten. She's still mad that I kicked her off my laptop so I could Blog. The picture is on my twitter but will put it here soon. Well best me watching an episode of Farscape than cuddle up with Cosmo and fall asleep. 


Good Nighty to All those out there.